One of the toughest yet most satisfying job ever = Being a Mom. This year marks the 12th year I’ve celebrated being a Mom. Each year it means even more as our memories just keep increasing and my “Mom resume” gets longer and longer. I feel differently this year about being a Mom. I’m 40 now and things look and feel different than when I was in my late 20’s.
Previous years (especially some of my first few) I was so excited to be a Mom and my energy was spent trying to keep up on all the ways to parent correctly. In the beginning of this parenting job I felt like I had so many rules, stigma’s, and the unknown to figure out. Trying to keep up with all these expectations while also worrying too much about judgement from others is HARD. This may or may not make us parent better- I don’t know? I do know that with each child it got a little easier and by my third I was more confident and less worried about judgement. Confidence grows with parenting and it sure is nice to get to that point where you parent with less outside influence and more from within.
This year I turned 40 and my 3 daughters are not babies anymore. Although 40 is young, it is also not 20 or 30… With age comes all sorts of ups and downs. We have friends and family that have gone through cancer and won, some that have not won, trauma and loss, and it seems that we get this news more frequently with each year. With these emotions I feel my parenting focus shift. I need to embrace the moment as well as do as much as I can to protect myself in order to be around for as long as possible. I realize that as we get older our health changes and this is scary!
Maybe this blog post should be titled “Growing older.” Enjoying the moment, not taking anything for granted and taking care of my health as best as I can will be my mantra this year. All the little choices about food, exercise, adventure, and love are so important in the big picture and they add up over time… Parenting is tough but I want to be celebrating Mothers Day for as long as I can. My big “carrot”… my 3 daughters. Whats your carrot?
Happy Mothers Day!